flux.

My name is Tarana. I'm 5"3, with light brown eyes and pale skin. I have many questions, but unfortunately, I lack answers. You'll often find me staring at the clouds, grinning with a lost air. There is a certain urgency in my thought, frailty in my action. There are many others like me. One would believe after countless nights lost to contemplation, we would come to conclusion of sorts. In time though, we will come to realize that the answers lie somewhere deep within us. Though I envy the sorts who make their decisions quickly, and shove their flags into the ground without a second thought, I feel proud to be confused.
In my confusion, I am able to digress and see beyond what is. I am able to perceive the world and its interesting inhabitants with an unbiased eye. I am a pallet, which can be painted any color I wish it to be. I am a fool who knows nothing, but will always be eager to learn more than those who believe they know it all.  I am in a constant state of flux, pushing harder and harder to find true meaning in life, even if sometimes I feel it is all in vain, that is to say our existence is merely a biological consequence - which perhaps it is.
I am the indecisive, I am the thinker. My "unsure" stance might be mistaken for an immature one, but this is who I am. My truth lies in not the answer, but in looking for it. I am and will always be entranced by the journey, and by those who I feel are worth being in mine. 

would like to profess my newfound love and respect for  MASSIVE ATTACK

perfect pitch.

hi.

working with a band is fun. its interesting because you take time not just to compose and synchronize, but also to get to know the other members - their strange habits, sense of humor, colloqialisms... their limits. you become attuned to their frequencies and for just a little while, you experience a song from their point of view. maybe you have an opportunity to learn more. or maybe you ultimately learn that perhaps, just as two notes might clash, two people might clash as well, that is to say two streams of thought might clash, two opinions or two perspectives might clash. or perhaps you may work in harmony, and together create something unlike anyone has ever heard. it really depends on your judgement. do you have the ear for the right notes?

50 year old's wish.

"Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first. Sometimes the first thing you want never comes. And I know, the waiting is all you can do... Sometimes." 

 

 

Gorillaz.

Things have gotten closer to the sun
And I've learnt this in small doses

So don't think that I'm pushing you away

When you're the one that I kept closest

my cute dogs.

Does everyone else add background music to the odd happenings in their everyday life? As I was watching my extremely fat dog look deep into the distance and think about his life yesterday afternoon, I complimented the glaze in his eyes and the pain in his heart with a melancholic piece - that I obviously sang out loud, after which my brother joined in and completely ruined the simplicity of it all.

Also, I've been thinking what it'd be like if zoey thought in the voice of Queen Elizabeth.

Brain, shut up please.

Sometimes.... I need a real strong coffee to convince myself that that the thoughts i pen down aren't just bitter ramblings of a neurotic teenager. The coffee doesn't help, though i'm getting better at drinking it.

I think it's a pain.
Whats a pain?
This constant pretense. This unnecessary importance given to such insipid people.